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is a taboo to discuss with others about own experience as a victim of
physical abuse. If it comes to discuss with his wife, it may be more
difficult. But Manish was able to muster courage to discuss his
traumatic experiences with his own wife that too on the very first
day of their marriage. What was the reaction of his wife?
is a fictitious story. Any resemblance with the main character with
any living or dead person may be a mere coincidence only.
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The First Night
was very happy to have a husband like Manish. He is extremely
intelligent, having an excellent job and above all, he is quite
also very beautiful, highly educated and from a very good family.
Their marriage was an arranged marriage. Sunita met Manish only once
before their engagement. Sunita actually did not want to marry for
another one or two years as she is the youngest daughter of her
parent. But after her meeting with Manish she had changed her mind
and agreed to marry Manish at the convenience of their parents and
parents agreed for a quick but elaborate marriage befitting to their
financial and social status.
their marriage, as per their tradition (which is different from many
others), both the bride and groom stayed for the first time in a
decorated room at Sunita’s parental home.
was sitting on her bed waiting for Manish to lift her veil. Manish
came to the room and sat on the bed near to Sunita. As expected, he
did not lift the veil of Sunita for some time. Both were sitting
silently for some time.
finally Manish broke the silence, ‘Sunita, I do not know, how I
shall start the issue! But I must tell these things to you. I do not
know how will you react to the core issue?’
thought, Manish must have a past love life. She wanted only that love
life should not have a bearing on their married life. Sunita did not
utter any word.
must be thinking, I had a relation with another lady. No I did not
have any girl in my life.’ He paused for a moment.
anxiety increased this time. ‘Is Manish a homosexual or he is
impotent?’ Her head started rolling.
must be thinking now that, either I am a homosexual or an impotent.
Again, I am saying a no.’ He again paused.
Sunita could not stop from talking. She removed her veil by herself
contrary to her own expectation and told, ‘For God’s sake, tell
me what you want to say quickly, otherwise I am going to faint. I do
not want any more suspense!’
next half an hour Manish told a story, Sunita never thought to hear
from her husband on their very first night.
II: Father Had No Time for
was born after his elder sister. He is the only son with three
sisters of their parent. He was extremely pampered. His parent wanted
to give everything within their reach to him.
class I, he was provided with a personal home tutor. The first tutor
was a saintly person and he thought Manish every good thing of the
world. That teacher was the main stay for his career building as his
father did not have any time for him. That teacher was sole guide and
mentor Manish up to class VIII. But because of his educational
qualification, he had to leave Manish at that level itself.
father appointed subject-wise home tutors for Manish from Class IX.
He hired the teachers from the best school of the locality as his
home tutors. At class IX, Manish had to face most traumatic
experience of his life at the hands of one of the home tutor.
was to appear a mathematics Olympiad in a different city. Manish and
his mathematics teacher were sent together for the Olympiad by his
father. They stayed in a good hotel for two nights at his father’s
nights were most traumatic nights of Manish in his entire life. He
was physical abused by the mathematics teacher more than once on
every night. He was also threatened by that horrible teacher that, if
he divulge it to someone he would be killed.
was so much horrified that he could not do well in the Olympiad and
could not muster the courage to divulge the horrific incident to
anybody in his family including his father.
Manish was able to get rid of the mathematics teacher after his
return from the city on the ground that he was not a competent
teacher to guide him properly in the Olympiad. But he could not get
rid of the scar of those dark nights for many years to come.
Friends Are Not Trustworthy
due to that trauma, Manish could not do extremely good result in
Class X examination. But in class XII examination, he was able to
secure a rank in the state level. After that he joined an elite
college of the state capital.
few friends in the next two years. One day he confided to one of his
friends about his dark nights few years back.
days, on the pretext of birth day of a friend, Manish was invited to
a hotel. After the party, few friends left and a group of friends
decided to stay back. Manish was also requested to stay back in the
night, his friends betrayed him and he was forced to go through the
same orgy few years ago on the night of mathematics Olympiad. His
friends did it one by one, ignoring his plea for not doing so. On
that night, he was both physically and mentally devastated. He lost
faith in any relation. Throughout the night he was crying as his
friends were laughing like some demons.
He Went to His Shell
After that incident, he went to a cocoon. He stopped talking to any
of his friends. He did not like to study anymore and he became
extremely depressed after that traumatic incident. Luckily for him, a
good teacher observed his change of behaviour.
One day the teacher called Manish to his chamber and cajoled him to
say what had bothered him. After getting lot of assurances from the
fatherly teacher, he narrated his side of the story.
His teacher thought for a while and advised him, ‘Look my son. I
understand, it is really traumatic for any boy when a teacher betrays
him or he is betrayed by his friends. I cannot change what has
happened to you. Only I can say you, concentrate on your study and
become a powerful man. Once you will be powerful, none will dare to
From that day, Manish slowly got back to his wits and could pass the
final examination with flying colours.
In a couple of years later, he was able to crack the Civil Service
A year back, all those friends came to meet him in his office with
folded hands to forgive them. He did not promise anything to them,
because he probably cannot forgive them.
He also learnt that his mathematics teacher lost his regular job from
the school where he was working while trying to repeat the same thing
to another student in the school. This time the student reported the
matter to the school authority. Manish lamented, why he could not do
that when he was victimized few years ago!
V: Self Doubt
has developed a self-doubt over the years. Is he a proper male or
not. Why males were after them, why those males forced him to play
the role of a female in bed? Is he lacking something what an ordinary
male is having?
his college days and afterwards also, many girls wanted to have
intimacy with him; but because of his self-doubt he never dared to
encourage those girls.
parent pressurized him for his marriage, he tried to avoid. But
finally he succumbed to the pressure and agreed to meet Sunita.
talking with Sunita, his inner feeling said him, she would be a good
friend of him and would understand him and his mental agony. But his
self-doubt remained there; whether he would play the role of husband
properly? Or he will satisfy his wife as an able male?
He wanted to discuss
all these things before his marriage. But over enthusiastic parents
did not allow Manish to meet Sunita before their marriage. Therefore,
he decided to share his trauma of those dark nights with Sunita on
the very first night.
Family is the Best Support System
listened to Manish without uttering a single word till he finished
his traumatic story.
finished his traumatic experiences, she said, ‘You did a grave
mistake by hiding the incident from your family. You should have
discussed the matter with your parent when you were victimized for
the first time. Family is the best support system for a person. Again
you did a mistake by sharing your bad experience with a
non-trustworthy friend. However, finally you did the best thing by
sharing your darkest nights with me. I am not only your wife, I am
going to be your best friend as well. As a friend, I promise you, I
shall never let you down in your life. I am also sure, as a male you
will satisfy me. I am confident that you will be the best husband a
wife would always aspire for. I fell in love with you on the very
first day and will love you till my last day. Now forget about the
past and start our life with a new beginning from tonight.’
her statement of wisdom, she embraced her husband, which was
reciprocated by her husband with full intensity.
morning, Sunita got up from the bed as a fully satisfied wife of a
truly male husband!
The author is a Government servant and a man of vivid experiences
derived from his official postings across the country, travels across
India and numerous visits outside India. He is presently placed at
earlier publications are:
Random Thoughts through a Coloured Prism
Dilemma of a Young Mind
Funny Statistics and Serious Statisticians
Melody of Fragrance
Few Cities through the Lens of Hiranya Borah
Guilt: Gift of Winter Spring
Great Fighters: Grace of God
Putting kids to sleep
How to become unpopular
My grumpy Face
Love and Worries
Discussion of own Birth: A Taboo
Indecent Love Affairs
My Fair Lady
My Mother: Dashami Borah
Only He Knows
The Stupid Mother
The Same Old Story
The Old Scoundrel
Some of my First Days and First Nights
Have You Met the God
Forgive and Forget
To Win or to lose
42. Call Girl
43. Beyond Blood Relation
44. Lady with a Black Car
45. My wife
46. Complete Woman
47. Diwali Gift
48. Romance with a Lady
49. Open Heart Surgery
50. My First Love
52. Pebbles on My Way Home
53. My First Bengali Book
54. Murder Mystery
57. Make a Habit to Thank God
58. Killing of a Bird
59. The Hero
60. Fantasy versus Reality
61. The Party
62. Road Rage
63. Death of a Friend
64. Cannot Live with Memory Only
65. None Cares for Me
66. A Tribute to My Guru
67. Two Professionals
68. The Choice
69. The Elusive Spouse
70. First Encounter with A P
71. Plane Crash
72. Plane Crash Part-II
73. Plane Crash Part-III
75. A Bag of Currency
76. Suitable Groom
77. Head Hunters
78. My Dear Sister
79. Selection While Waiting at the Airport
80. Oh Shit
82. He Got Back His Wife
83. Beautiful Faces
84. Elder Sister
85. Good Morning
87. Pass on your Death to Someone Else
88. Colour of Holi
89. Why Blame others
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